here goes nothing

sometimes i'm afraid that i've had enough

health status: sick my whole trash can is filled with tissue currently having a headache i should sleep but i can't breathe took meds but aren't working very well thirsty but out of water this tea is making me feel dehydrated mental status: drained probably because i'm sick don't really feel like talking to anyone don't want to check social media don't want to think don't want to be in my room someone outside is blasting music rn i think it's from a car, it's getting fainter almost forgot it was friday, well saturday now didn't go to class today so forgot i wanted to go to the cac for samara golden's exhibition oh well, it's up until february she's such a cute smol lady, her works are amazing i wish i had the privilege to see her previous works in person discoveries of the day: illslick & sam tinnesz

i thought that maybe i was ready to finally watch it, but the sudden surge of emotions was overwhelming. moving on.....is not easy........................ and maybe we can never truly move on

i was foolish to think that things would be different

good old days - jang deok cheol daydream - han hee jun by my side - crush 망하길 바랬어 (ft. sik-k) - kisses no answer - g.soul i'll be there - g.soul downtown baby - bloo just - bumzu whyyoumad - giriboy hikikomori - giriboy hot potato - n.flying brown eyes view - justhis, paloalto ความลับในใจ - jeena, emma, pam i need somebody - day6 down - park won all of my life - park won help - 10cm everything - 10cm im cry  why they killin me

still don't really know what i'm gonna make, buuuut i can't wait to make it lol eric, the manager, explained some tools to us in the last half of class. we were supposed to each cut a piece for the demo but we ran out of time ;; well my group didn't get to, but the other half of the class got to use the plank cutter i already forgot what the machines are called smh the brad nail gun, we have one at home i think lol wearing the safety glasses over my glasses is so annoying and inconvenient bleh. i wonder why we don't have aprons we have to tie our hair in a bun and i can't do buns lol i like our professor, she's adorable (Jennifer Pastor, if interested) i like her work too, which i looked up before enrolling in her section lol i still don't quite understand what she wants from the prompt tho paper material...paper...paper...i don't have much...besides binder paper need to go "dumpster diving" around the studios almos...

his voice always strikes me when i'm least expecting it. the tucked away feelings slowly start resurfacing, overflowing.