here goes nothing

I went out driving with my mom after she got back from work. We drove to the mall, to the Tutti Fruitti place. I'm still scared changing lanes to be honest. Will I be ready for the test in a few days? I was driving to the mall and this freakin car drove hella close to me, I don't know what he/she was doing >.> Like the car was closing in on me right next to me. I was hella scared and kinda went over to the other lane to avoid getting hit. I shouldn't have done that because it would've been dangerous if another car was next to me or almost coming next to me. Good thing there wasn't. Gosh I hate driving when there's a lot of cars T^T It was that freakin silver car's fault -.- Watch where you're going man!!

I went with them to take Kala and Aunt to the airport, cuz they wanted me to go and Kala wanted me to go to ^^ She wanted me to go to Texas with them too xD Sorry~ maybe next time! (She loves me :D ) I was playing Cat Landing with her in the car and it was so funny xD After we dropped them off, we went to Vampire Penguin. It was so good~~~ I liked it better than Bon Mange's. The we went to Old Sac cuz someone wanted to get a caramel apple -.- Well, it wasn't all bad cuz I got ice cream xD It was some good ice cream ^^

My cousin and her bf took me out and we first went to the Bass Pro Shop place and it was so cool~ well the animals lol. There was a shooting game and the rifle was so heavy D: I really need to exercise lol. I didn't have my glasses either so I was so blind xD I got 60 pts at first then I got 130 lol. good enough xP Then we went to this place in Ripon because he wanted to go to the shooting range. Tbh I was really scared at first cuz, ya know it's a real gunnn. The lady went through the safety procedures with us and taught us how to handle it. It was pretty hard pulling down the thingy to bring the trigger thing closer lol. I was pretty good at aiming without my glasses *insert emoji with shades* lol It was kinda fun. But when other people came in (all guys D:) they were using the more powerful guns and the bullet shells were flying back at us so I was hella scared xD Oh yeah I got this mint fudge at the Bass Pro Shop and it was way too sweet xP

Never mind, never mind There are many things in this world you can’t do shit about You better Never mind, Never mind If you think you’re gonna crash, step on the pedal harder Never mind, Never mind We’re too young to give up Never mind

I write it, then I erase it. I'm determined, then I feel insecure. I decided, then I waver.

The shy, quiet girl at school, The lazy, moody daughter at home, The weird, sometimes funny friend outside, or The dark, depressing child inside? "Wow, you really changed since you came back." Did I? Or am I just done pretending and putting up with your shit. I don't want to have to change my personality and my mentality to feel comfortable in front of people. I just want to be myself. But I can't find that 'self.'