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on top of a tall building, people were jumping off. there were people waiting for them at the bottom. everyone had one person pulling them into a tight embrace as they reached the ground. it wasn't scary or dark. it was pastel skies and smiling faces. i walked over to the edge of the platform. there was no one. no one was waiting for me. the colors faded away into a black and white. would i still jump knowing there was no one to catch me?

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These past few days, or maybe even the whole week, were so stressful. *grabs hair and screams* jk but still. I was so busy with sculpture that I kind of ignored my other classes. Well not totally since there was so much hw, which made it even more stressful. My body aches and I'm always tired. I sleep enough, I think, but I never feel "rested" I was at the studio 2/3 days of the long weekend and I didn't even get much done orz In my defense, I needed the tools in the metal shop and it wasn't open on weekends. Bless our TA for coming in on a holiday to open the shop for us. I probably wouldn't have been able to do anything without him man, he's so nice and helpful ;; I finished so late minute smh and skipped my classes to finish (someone slap me). Everyone's were so cool! I wasn't very satisfied with mine. People told me it was cool and  pretty, but I still thought it was ugly afjdflsgfj I was extending my paper clip...tapestry(??) a...

sometimes i wonder if it's really better to suffer now in order to have a "better future" a future that we can't even predict nor are we even sure that it will come. the decisions we make now will influence what comes next, but why do we always put tomorrow before today? why can't today be just as important as tomorrow? if we aren't happy in the present; will we be able to wait for that "better future"? i'm not saying we shouldn't think about the future at all, but maybe we could put some more importance on the present as well.