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Funny how 4 is the $ sign lol I watched the first episode yesterday. It's funny how the producers diss each other but they're actually friends lol. Gotta make the show interesting haha. So Black Nut did pass and he really did take off his pants..twice lol. What a weirdo. OMG the guy from Persevere Goo Haera was there! Kim Min Jae, he's an actor but he's good~ He and Jaewon & Vernon are the flower boy rappers lol There was a lot of idols, but most of them didn't pass. I hate that they didn't reveal Mino and Taewoon's results >.> can't wait till next week man So sad 5Zic and SIMS didn't pass xP There was a grandma that came on the show xD she's cute haha A few contestants from last season came back. It seems interesting~ I feel like AOMG team will be like Illionare team lol. VJ is so...weirdly unique? xD He was funny on Running Man, not cuz he was funny but it was just funny lol. Jiyeon from GLAM was there....

Yesterday was Father's Day so grandpa asked us to go tea. Mom and Daisy had to work so they didn't get to eat with us even tho they were there lol. It was just the kids, aunt, and my grandparents (dad side). We went to the restaurant when mom went so we waited an hour before grandpa them came because they had to pick up Rinoa. Then we ate and like 20 minutes later Aunt came with Kala. After she greeted everyone else she was like " You are so cuuute, Meimei!" in her funny accent LOL  I was already full before they came so Andrew, Rinoa, and I were playing games on our phones. I was watching them play Fallout Shelter. It's weird haha. They said something about making babies on there. xD People are kept in a big safe o.o I kinda want to play lol. There wasn't that many people, but still way more than usual. The char siu sou (i had to look this up xD) was good~ Then grandpa took us back home. I didn't even say Happy Father's Day t...

Recently, we went to the movies. We watched Jurassic World. I never watched any of the other ones tho, so I thought it was gonna be scary. Imagine watching it in IMAX tho :o I want to experience lol. It was good, the moment when the raptors turned back to save them ;~; I thought Blue and the guy was gonna hug at the end, but they didn't D; The T-Rex was walking on the roof at the end and it was funny to me for some reason LOL His tiny little arms~ Then we went to the Thai place to eat. The food was pretty good, but kinda sweet. The Roti was so good~~I wanted more haha. I kept the sword toothpick that came with it xD The curry was too sweet for my liking tho. I miss the curry from the place Uncle Rich used to work at. It was so good with anything~ Then we went to the mall. Jessie, Angela, Linda, Wendy and I went to Pink&VS because of the sale. It's kinda awkward going in there cuz I'm not gonna buy anything. Wendy was like she doesn...

I haven't done too much towards the goals... It's been too busy and people keep coming over so I can't do anything. To be honest, I don't think I'll have much progress by the end of summer hehe... In the past few weeks, my mom and I went out to the mall quite a bit. We bought clothes for my dad for Father's Day and some for us too. It's been a while since we've been to the mall. I bought some "fancy" clothes. Fancy to me, but just regular everyday clothes for other girls haha. Haven't gotten any new clothes for a while so it felt new? (no pun intended lol) All I ever wear is t-shirts. And not even regular t-shirts, but free ones from MESA and events lol. Not that I don't want to dress more girly and fashionable like other girls, but it just doesn't fit me? Like I can't get used to it. Before, mom bought me some nice clothes but I hardly ever wear them. They're just sitting in the closet collecting du...

Today we went to the creek(?) thing behind my house to swing on the rope.  If you walk a bit down the road, there's a rope attached to a branch on a tree by the river bank.  Since the river doesn't have water anymore, it's dry.  It was there a long time ago apparently.  There used to be a tire on it but I guess it came off.  I was a bit scared to go on it, but they made me so I did lol.  There's a loop so I put my foot on there and swung across to the other side. I couldn't reach the ground to stop so Daisy had to catch me.  It was fun, but it hurts my hands lol.  The guys could just swing without putting their foot on the loop, so she tried but she fell and got a scrape. ouch! >.<  I didn't want to do it anymore but they forced me so I did. Cesar was supposed to catch me to let me down but he failed so I kept swinging back and forth and had to get down at the bottom of the river lol.  It wasn't that high from the bottom of the rop...

Monsta X -> KCONLA I thought I couldn't be more upset, but I guess not TT^TT  Don't even let me see the lineup updates anymore >.< UPDATE: Zion.T & Crush T^T Somebody save my heart ;~;

So I went to the dentist just now and it was pretty quick this time. Didn't have to wait that long.  Oh you graduated high school already?  Yeah.  Are you going away for college? Yeah.  Where are you going? UC Irvine Oh! You'll have a lot of fun there, because there's lots of Asians. (Lol)  [to the assistant] Sorry hahaha (cuz she's Mexican lol) You'll have fun, but your mom won't like it lol. I'm going to miss you *pats my head*  Lol He gave me two toothbrushes so it'll last me till December haha. (But tbh I don't even switch my toothbrush that often hehe. It's every 3 months now right?)

Why do I keep having such weird dreams lol.  It started with being at school, SECA campus cuz I remembered there was a part where I went to the college career center.  Somehow people were lining up for something and I had a hammer...I carried it to Ms. West's room (it wasn't her room in the dream tho). It was more like a room  like in a house.  There were coaches, but still had her tables. There was also a bucket of clothes.  Somehow Andrew and I got mad at each other and he threw the clothes in the basket to random places and I got really mad so I kicked him. Then we started fighting?? But not an intense one.  Then I left with the hammer to return in. I went past the same line of people trying to get to the office, but the college career room somehow became a garage.  They were filming something inside.  Then I was on my bed in my room. It like normal. Ivy was there and I just woke up.  We watched some videos on the iPad about celebrities le...

I think it was a senior trip? I only remember seeing seniors there.  Anyways we were somewhere that seemed like a hotel.  We were walking there and David said hi to me like he usually does at school then he got really close and I was like what is happening??   So I sped up and found Mina by the door.  I was trying to get away from him?? I was with Mina at the door and told her everything.  He was standing by the wall next to the door. (I felt creeped out man lol)  Then we went inside the room as fast as possible.  Somehow I ended up carrying a bag of bed sheets? Lol.  There were lots of room on the right side of the room but I didn't want to carry the bag over there so I wanted to sit at the back near the door but there weren't enough room. Mina and Sam sat down and another girl took the seat next to them. Then she left so I took that seat haha.  After that it switched scenes to Steph, Yun and I were watching a movie in front of the TV. ...

I had a weird dream today. I don't remember it all, but here's what happened. I was at a school, not sure where but it was a big school with residential areas. I was walking through a gate and then I noticed that the people sitting were actually wolves. o.o I was scared so I slowly backed out of the gate, but they started to come after me. Then more people got scared and ran away. I fell down and a guy offered me his hand (I think I know him?? like in the dream) so I took it, and we ran away while holding hands. Then the wolves stopped coming (or didn't catch up yet) so we and some other people stopped in front of some houses to catch our breaths. Thomas came out of the house we were in front of and was confused. The guy seemed to know him and asked if we can stay in his house if the wolves come again. Then right after he asked, the wolves can be seen in the distance so we went in his house. We were still holding hands....lol. I hate when you can...

Today I started to exercise a bit more.  I hula hooped for like 30 minutes.  It was the kind that's heavy and has the bumps on the inside so it hurts a lot now ToT  Then I jogged a bit around the house. Not much tho lol.  Then I went biking with Ivy around the neighbor hood. Idk how long it was but it felt long xD  Anyways a funny/embarrassing incident happened while I was hula hooping lol.  I had the music on and was like singing horribly to Call Me Baby and then Chris walks in out of nowhere and saw me xD  He laughed or smiled idk lol. He went to Andrew's room and then came out and asked us how we were doing.  He came back from Texas yesterday apparently.  Btw he's like 20 something lol.  That was all. 

My recent obsession. This show isn't recent, but I never found subs on it. It seemed interesting when I first heard it, but I kind of pushed it off to the side for later. Then one day I saw it and decided to watch i my life?! lol. It's pretty good so far. Some of the casts I am familiar with, like Sam and Julian, since they were in other shows as well. They're funny lol. I knew Aussie Daniel looked familiar! He was the guy in AOA's Like A Cat MV lol. I'm pretty surprised at how many foreigners there are in Korea. Their Korean is pretty good, esp. Enes and Julian. Some still have the accents lol. Most of them are European country reps. Oh yeah, Takuya was there too~~^^ I think my favorite is Robin (from France~lol) He is so cute/good looking! xD He can dance (b-boy) and sing too! *^* He was on Trot X (LOL) He seems to have a nice personality too lol. He was on 5 Days of Summer w/ Lim Kim. I want to watch but can't find any subs ...

Exercise. I want to lose some body fat and gain some muscle hehe. There isn't a set number of pounds I want to lose because I don't think numbers are that important. What I want is to be satisfied with my body, I guess? It doesn't matter how much I weigh, but I just want to be toned. Lol. Plan: Go running/jogging every morning for 30mins~1hr (whenever possible), follow the Blogilates calendar (forreals this time. NO QUITTING !!), try to not sit around as much as possible (in other words-keep moving!), Drink lots of water . Eat in a more timed pattern(?). Also eat small meals more often rather than large meals few times a day. (Gotta keep that metabolism movin') Go biking at night for 30mins~1hr. Piano. I want to start learning piano again from the beginning. I feel like I gave up on a lot of things, but I want to at least keep something going. I have the materials and there's always the internet lol. Practice from the book for 30 minutes a day, at least...

I've decided....to start a concert fund. LOL. If I can't see SUJU, BlockB & others at KCON, I have to at least go see Big Bang T^T Cuz Anaheim is reeaallyy close. GOT7 and EPIK HIGH already passed >o<; Anyways I'm still thinking of my goals... Will update later. 기다려~

I read the little messages you wrote to each of us. I don't know if I've ever read it before, but I feel like I did. Recently, well this year, you know things sorta changed right? I don't know what to think because when you're with us, it feels like..you..but when you're with others, I feel like I don't know you anymore. Or maybe I never did. Maybe you're just putting on your mask, like you said, or maybe things really have changed. I don't know. I cried reading it. This would make it the second time this year I cried because of you. The first time I don't really know why I did, but I know this time. It's because I miss the times we spent together. I miss having you around. Yes, you're right. You guys do have a big influence in my life. I would never be who I am now if I have never met you guys. You've never seen me really annoyed or mad not because I hide it really well or I'm really easygoing, but because there...

I almost died today at the court house.  Well not really, but ya know.  I walked out and suddenly I felt like throwing up? Then my vision became impaired. It wasn't blurry. I don't know how to describe it. Like blotches were obstructing my view. It was like looking through a filter. I think it was green... I didn't feel dizzy either. Like imagine looking in the sun for too long and seeing a bunch of those spots.  I also felt weak and cold.  It lasted for like 30 seconds, maybe? I was scared. I thought I was going to black out.  Right when I sat down in the car I felt better.  This only happened once before.  There was a time in PE. I think sophomore year.  We were running, I don't remember what but it was more than a mile, and after I finished my vision "blurred" like that too.  I had to sit down by the wall and recover before I could go in.  I felt so alone that time.  So this is how I'm gonna die? But of course I didn't lol. ...