here goes nothing

It's 12:22 AM There was a whole lot more stuff than I expected actually. The car is packed. Even the back seats haha.  I went out to get something from the car and Andrew was playing basketball with Chris. He called my name so I looked. He asked me if I was going to college. I said yes. Then he asked if I was excited or nervous. Before I could say something Andrew told me to tell him how hard seca was. I said it isn't even that hard and we laughed. Then I went back inside to finish packing.  Haven't seen, well I've seen him a couple times since I came back but haven't talked to him in so long lol. He got really tan now, but still looks the same.  Then there was a cockroach and Ivy told me to step on it so I did. Wow they don't die easy lol. And out of nowhere I hear Chris say, " Don't do that or his buddies are going to come for you!" I was like, "What??" at first cuz I didn't know he was talking to me lol. Then he sai...

I'm trying to make my 1:30 mood playlist on 8tracks right now and it is harder than I thought to coordinate all the songs. I'm trying to recreate his mood, but I don't think I'm doing it justice. (Sorry Dean T-T) Also I just really like the playlist cover hehe~ Sucks you can't have more than two songs from the same artist -3- I just read Yun's post and yeah we probably aren't gonna be active for a long time, or forever who knows. Everyone's so busy now and it's hard to meet up. I feel like Polaris has become like yelowsmob, just a group of friends that has members who occasionally make music together (or covers in our case). Not to mention they're almost all the same age too lol. I don't know about the others, but Polaris has long become more than just a cover group to me. It's more like when you refer to a family by their last name. If that makes sense lol. Anyways if we do disband, we will still always be Polaris. ... I wante...

Exactly three months ago from today, I wrote about packing. And here I am to write about it again. Interesting timing ain't it? I don't necessary have to pack today, since I still have a week left. But I suddenly felt like I should start. Just in case so I don't forget anything. Did I tell you that I got a new housemate? The cosplayer left and a 4th year is taking her place. (I may have 'stalked' them a bit.) I wonder how big the room is. I wanted to take my keyboard, but since we have to bring the mini fridge there won't be room.../cries. To be honest I don't even know what to bring. Besides the necessities. I already 'packed' some stuff, but it's just in this tiny basket haha. There's a lot to bring, yet it seems like there isn't much. Now it really feels like I'm living on my own. Gotta clean my own bathroom and buy my own toiletries. (I miss the janitor ToT) Gotta buy my own groceries and make food as well. This...

The future is...unknown since it is the future - a place and time we have yet to live out. Don't worry. No, you should worry actually. If you're too relaxed things can slip away. But don't worry too much. I hate having to choose between so many choices for just one. One that can change my whole life, more or less. It's so unfair to make us choose when we have not experienced or learned enough. "Plan ahead. Pave your road. Build your bridges." Those words are only for the ones whose dreams/roads are set and ready to be enacted upon. Those words are only poison for those who do not have the slightest idea of what to pursue or what direction to head. As one of those people, it makes me frustrated...stressed...scared...frantic.

So even highly respected people who had made a difference in the world have done horrible, unforgivable things.  You really can never know a person.