Home

When I step past my door frame, I get dizzy

Because it's the border to my comfort zone

The useless emotions that dirty my heart are covered with dust

If I get out of here, there's death

Because, more than the familiar sadness

I disliked the unfamiliar happiness, I threw away my footsteps

I worry that I'll become a pair of worn out shoes

Because the world, the time, the people put me on crooked

I forget 

Like the heaps of newspaper and bills in front of my door

The thoughts and demands of the world

Don't leave them in front of me

This is my home, leave me alone

Just don't come in here

Now I cry without tears

Just like breathing, I cry again

The sadness that became a home

Though I try to take a step out, I cry at the doorstep

Without knowing, I cry

Do I deserve to be happy?

Why have I fallen deeply into shallow scars?

Living is like going through a hail of arrows

But why do I have such a big target tacked on to my heart?

Emotions run from one end to another

But for a slow-paced me, I fall behind and out of breath

I cannot hold my heart and lose the world

With happiness only few steps up, I raise each step a little more

For some people all of this would be terrifying

But to me, it's more natural than laughing

Crying is easy, just like breathing

The more you hold in, the more you let out

Let me breathe, sadness is my home

I want to stay here, in this place

Even if I go out to happiness for a moment

Now I know well that I'll always come back home

Inside my sadness that became my home

Can I invite you in?

-Tablo