neglect

i've always thought i was the one being neglected, but while drowning in my self-deprecation i became the one that was neglecting.

i'm such a bad person, sister, daughter, friend, etc.

while wanting people to be able to depend on me, i feel like i've just pushed them further away from me.

i feel ashamed and sad that i couldn't be someone that you could share your pain with freely despite being someone that is close to you.

am i hard to approach or am i just too distant.