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how to turn busy work into meaningful work


i'm here sipping on a chrysanthemum tea and it's kinda starting to taste like nothing
just like everything i do

i carried my stuff for painting to class and back
my arms/hands are shaking
it was so heavy
i'm exhuasted

3 paintings due on tues
physics hw due mon
neurobio midterm coming up
gotta make 2 prints for photo & shoot another roll

"don't keep investing in something just because you've already invested so much in it"

i always tell myself to keep going because i've already done so much
i need to learn when to let go, how to let go
it's hard when you've already put so much into something
it seems like a waste to stop, but holding onto it will not guarantee it won't be a waste later
i understand, but i can't walk the walk

like the guy that stood up and announced that he was dropping in the middle of lecture
because "this" is not his dream

will i also one day have had enough and quit?