here goes nothing

I'm happy you're happy :')

Hello, It's been awhile. I can never keep something going, can I? Even a halfway point seems so out of reach for me. Good news, bad news, no news Everything seems so trivial these days. 무.관.심. ㅑ ㄹ띠 ㅡㅛㄴ딜 ㄴㄷ씨ㅑㅜㅎ 랙 내 ㅡ무ㅛ 소ㅑㅜㅎㄴ 솓ㄴㄷ ㅇ묜. ㅑ ㅊ무'ㅅ ㄴ뜨 새 ㅊㅁㄱㄷ 무ㅛㅡㅐㄱㄷ. ㅗ디ㅔ ㅡㄷ. 다른 세상으로 도망가고싶어 

in light of recent events, i've realized again how fragile life is. i always forget how small our existence is, how big the world, the universe is. "death is inevitable, do the things you want to do now." ....is what i want to remind myself.

first week of classes is over the first few days i was pretty productive if i wasn't sleeping or eating i was studying/doing homework problems i wasn't even doing anything else but it really just took that long to finish the homework i slept early around 10-11pm and always woke up a few minutes before 6am but ofc i went back to sleep until 8am since class is at 9am then on thursday was our first quiz i thought i was prepared, but i guess not during class the professor was demonstrating (ivy is snoring really loudly next to me rn l m a o) with liquid nitrogen and then he suddenly started pouring the rest of the giant bottle on the floor?? he shrugs and says, "it's cheap" and continues emptying the bottle he's funny, i like him lol haven't really been on social media lately except to check messages a few times so i'm not really updated on recent stuff time seems to move slower...but also faster? lol then friday happened and ...

i know ;;;;; i'll try to accept it, thanks yun  ♡ the AC is on and it's so cold, but it's so hot with it off jfakdjfkdf hopefully i did okay on my physics final....*pls let me be done with physics* the girl that has a bf in the second floor is moving out she said she friend is taking over her lease it's the last day and this is probably the most we've ever spoken to each other lol she said her friend that's also a bio major in her 2nd year is having a hard time getting to know professors for letters of rec and stuff. i'm here like (cries internally) i don't even know any stem professors and i'm about to graduate soon i've been saying how frustrating it was all qtr about painting, but looking back i think i semi enjoyed it near the end kinda miss the class and the people i miss photography too i miss having a camera lol when will i save enough for one ;;;;; there's so many art classes i want to take but so little time sighs...

why am i so fickle

there's so much i'd like to write down but there's so much that there's nothing if that even makes sense my life feels like a blank piece of paper so much has happened, but in the end it's still a blank piece of paper as time passes everything becomes nothing